Things that remind me of him..

this bracelet really gave me a special memories of him.. he bought this on 23rd April 2010.. i still remember it was on Friday.. we hang out at Pasar Seni cause we wanted to buy my friends a birthday gift.. actually before that, early in the morning, about 2a.m., he told me about his feeling towards me.. and when we hang out that time, he didn't talk too much because he said he was shy and scared to talk with me about what he just told me before.. and i just laugh at him.. he's kind of cute.. really.. and i really miss him right now.. and i wondering if he miss me too.. naaah.. i guess not.. he is happy with someone else.. it's just me, the one that still have this feeling towards him.. i know i made some mistake and i deserved this.. serve my right, right..? but who cares.. it is not wrong to loving someone.. it is not a crime, right..?

and this picture, i bet you know what it is.. a necklace.. also from him.. i'm not sure he gave it to me or not.. but we exchange our necklace.. he wears mine and i'm wearing his.. and i still remember when he gave this to me.. it was on my final exam.. 30th April 2010.. when i had my math paper.. that was a bad day actually.. cause i can't answer my math paper.. plus i have a bad mood that day.. but he did make my day.. he gave me this idea of exchanged our necklace.. and i was so happy.. this necklace means a lot to him but he risk it and ask me to have it.. it's like i've been appreciated.. :) but i know i have to give him back this necklace when we meet next month.. i wish i could kept this necklace.. it means a lot to me.. :(

every single memories of me and him, i will keep it and remains forever even though he throw away all those memories.. and what i learned in this chapter of my love story is, i should take caution whenever it comes to love things.. sweet words and beautiful promises wont keep the love last forever.. but it do gives me a broken heart.. and i know broken heart really hard to mend..

am i...?

am i bad..?
hurmm.. lots of people out there says YES for me..
well.. all i can say i'm just a human alright..
sometimes i may hurt people feelings..
sometimes i may laugh at those people mistakes..
i know it is really mean..
but it just the way i am...
i know i may annoyed some others people..
ya ya ya... 'think before u act'..
i know you will say that..
but sometimes u just can't think before u act..
or should i say, 'think before you say something'..
naa... who cares...
i got my own way.. and if u dont like me.. then fuck off..
that's all i can say...

Reaching Out

i wake up every morning and put on my face..
another day that i have to get through..
wishing it will be another good day..
where it can give me a beautiful memories..
looking for the right things to happen in my life..
if everyday was as good as the was..
then i cant wait to see tomorrow...
but everyday aint gonna be like the day was..
everyday is different..
never knows what will happen now or in the future..
right now all i can do is..
just trying to reach out for someone..
someone to make my everyday filled with miracle..
the miracle that i wanted to witness..
miracle that can give me to a meaningful life to be..
isn't it where life should be..?

LiFe

what does life means to you?
This question keep on playing in my head..
life sometimes bring you happiness..
it gives you smile..
it gives you laughter..
it gives you joy..
it gives you pleasure..
but sometimes it bring you sadness..
it gives you tears..
it gives you hurt..
it gives you pain..
some says life is just like a game..
there are ups and downs..
but in life you have to move on..
and leaves the past behind..
without knowing what will life bring you to..
will it bring you the happiness as you wish for?
will it bring you the sadness that you wanted to run away from?
nobody knows..
somesays what past is past..
just leave it all behind..
but for me..
past is history..
it brought to where you are right now..
without it you would not have what you have right now..
history are meant to be remember..
but does all of the past need to be remember?
all the hurt?
all the pain?
all the tears?
or just the happiness?
only the laughter?
only the smile?
only the joy?
so that we'll moves on..?
and now i'm still looking for the answer....
what does life means to you?

SoMeOne...

loving someone...
is not easy..
because you might get yourself hurt..
loving someone..
without he notice that you are next to him..
it is the worst feeling ever..
loving someone...
without he know the presence of you in his life..
it is the sad things ever to know...
loving someone...
that you never get the chance to say to him that you loves him..
it is the regretful things that you ever do..
loving someone...
for a long time and all you do just want to get him to be with you..
it is the most painful feeling you ever feels...
you keep on wondering in your life..
what will you do to get he notice of your presence...?
what will you do to let him knows that you adore him..?
what will you do to make he loves you too...
or the the most perfect question to ask...
does he loves you too???

LoVe...

love..
what does love means to you?
what does it bring to your life?
does it give you happiness?
does it give you pain and hurt?
does it presence worth in your life?
have you ever laugh like it was your best day in your life because of it?
have you ever cry all night long because of it?
have you ever feels like you want to scream at the top of your lung because of it?
sometimes loves can make you happy..
feels like your in heaven..
sometimes it give you pain and hurt...
feels like you are in the worst nightmare ever...
sometimes it give you all the pressure in your life..
feels like you want to run away from your life..
now i wondering..
does love make your life worth it..
or does it just a game to play in your life...

|nnOcEncE

Waking up, I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life, and now it's so great
Slowing down, I look around, and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life, and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong; I'm so happy here
It's so strong, and now I let myself be sincere
It's a state of bliss;
you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful,
it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by