I wonder how can I get into the mess that I've created..
I messed up.. I swear I messed up..
I should have not take that step..
But sometimes I am glad that I made that mistake in my life..
Because it was a greatest day in my life..
The attention that I want, I got that..
The caring that I want to feel, I felt that..
The passionate that I want to have, I had it..
I got everything I want in a day..
But in the same time I am not glad to have it all..
Even it is on my special day..
I know I was wrong..
But am I totally wrong..?
Now I am still in this guilty fettle yet so glad..
Though the one who gave me all these in a day just thought it all was nothing valued..
The one who gave me all these may thought I am a girl that easy to give it all away..
The truth is I am not that kind of person..
I only gave it away because of the feelings that I ever had on the one who gave me all these..
I know I am going out of one's head to think about this..
Why don't I let go all of these feeling..
Let go all of the wrong step that I took..
Let go all the things I felt..
Let go of these guilty and joy I ever had..
Just let time wash away these feeling and memories..
I can't take any longer to have these memories..
I swear I will never do the same mistake in my life again..
